Oh that demon within. Can you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your ambitions deep into my soul. And there I rest, the monster within playing around within me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I really try to run from you.
But I'll fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am truly conscious of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anyone any more by showing them a smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Perhaps I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I'm going to start chatting with you for the first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It is time to start living my life and make the best choices I possibly can. But I know I must consult with you...oh harsh devil within. You can show me an untraveled path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have to say.
But I'll fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I will see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am truly conscious of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anyone any more by showing them a smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Perhaps I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I'm going to start chatting with you for the first time. But now, my life choices are based primarily on light. It is time to start living my life and make the best choices I possibly can. But I know I must consult with you...oh harsh devil within. You can show me an untraveled path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a walk. I want to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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